Forever 21

Happy Birthday/April Fool's Day to ME!!

Last year on my B day I was still adjusting to Mj being out of the country and was feeling pretty angry about that. I figured my B day was going to suck anyways so I agreed to go to a 8 hour Microsoft Access Workshop even though it fell on the 1st. BIG mistake. It turns out it was not exactly the beginner class that it claimed to be and I sat there all day halfway falling asleep feeling stupid, confused, and worried that my job was going to be mad at me for wasting their money because I did not learn a thing. I thought Excel was bad...but Access is a whole new level of WTF. After the workshop I just went home and it was the worst B day ever. I told myself that next year was going to be different.

Despite that fact that I had no real plans I went ahead and took the day off anyways. Our office is actually closed tomorrow so I figured what the hell! I might as well turn it into a 4 day weekend. No cleaning for me today though goodness knows my condo needs it bad. I got to sleep in. I ran some errands, made some phone calls, and relaxed. Sure beats sitting in the office for 8 hours. Tonight after the unfortunate ones who had to go to work get off Mj and I are meeting up for a double date with my parents that I am really looking forward to.

It sounds strange but as I get older sometimes I actually kinda forget how old I am. The older you get the less likely you are to be asked how old you are and frankly-my age just doesn't cross my mind all that much. I got my mama's genes which means that I am always going to look younger then my age-and trust me I don't mind one bit. I haven't started with the anti aging creams yet but I will this year. And to think when I was 18 I wanted so badly to look older!! Just another reminder of how when you are young you think you know and you just have no idea. They say that youth is wasted on the young-and I can't agree more.

It's funny because in high school I thought people in their 20's were old but then when I got there I realized that people in their 20's are really just babies. Now 30's...those folks are old!! Leaving my 20's was hard for me at first but I got over it and now that I have hit the 30's myself I really don't feel as old as I thought I would. And even better, I am so much happier and better adjusted now then I was in my 20's. I can say for sure that I am a heck of a lot cuter then I used to be!! Let's just say adolescence with it's thick glasses, gap toothed smile, braces, bad hair and even worse clothes was not kind to me. I didn't start figuring out what to do with myself until my 20's and I have gotten better with age. I feel so much more settled into myself now. Most people start modeling young but it wasn't something I could even fathom trying until my late 20's. I would definitely call myself a "late bloomer" in more ways then one. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up and I may not have a 10 year plan but at least I know who I am.

I don't necessarily want to get old but the idea of being forever 21 isn't so appealing either. I'm still not so sure about how I feel about the BIG 4-0 but somehow it just doesn't seem so scary as it used to be.